Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Better Time and Places

Well ... I am doing better than I was doing last week. I feel almost human again, and I have not talked to my father since all of that stuff started. I feel better knowing that my heart is okay though, let's just say it got worse before it got better. I now have something to help when things get like that.

I have been out trying to shoot the last couple of weekends. I did not get much this past weekend because the place I wanted to shoot at ... all it did was rain all day. My niece got crowned Lumberjill, This is a big thing in the town she lives in, and I planned on shooting some photos with her in her pretty yellow borrowed dress, but because of the weather all I could do was watch.

I took some shots of a few things I found a little interesting. I have always loved vines that cover a building. I am not sure why I think they are so pretty, but I do ... So here are a couple of shots of that sort.

I just enjoy being outdoors once in a while, so much that I cannot help but take pictures of the things I see .. more for the memories of seeing them than anything. I went to Emerson Park in Auburn, NY this past weekend and it is one of my favorite parks in this area because it has some history. I took this shot just as the outdoor walk path light turned on.

I plan on getting out again this coming up weekend. I am not sure where I am going to yet. I feel one of those trips coming on that happens by pointing in a direction an driving in it to see where it leads me. I have been wanting to take a drive down to a place in Pennsylvania I lived years ago .. Who knows I may end up in that direction.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

America in the Forest

I took a drive in the state forest a couple of days ago and came across something beautiful ...

I messed with the image threw photoshop because the amount of light in the opening over exposed the image and I only shot it once. If you follow the trail, from what I was told ... there are tombstone from the 1600's and 1700's. I plan to visit this site again to verify this and get GPS coordinates to share with others that might be interested in checking out the place.

What to do???

I swore to myself when I started this blog I was not going to get too personal, but I really just need to get something off my mind so I can try to go back to bed. I got a phone call at about 11pm tonight (07/11/09) from a family member that was so drunk and my guess was looking to hurt someone ... Well I guess I was the target. I normally do not answer the phone in the middle of the night, but this person has known health issues, and I am the closet relative with any say so and I thought at this hour something was wrong, and apparently it was me. I should by all rights not care two beans about this person, they have caused me nothing but pain for the last 16 years of my life, but that is just not the way I am.

I was called just to be reminded about the abuse I suffered as a child by someone that I worshipped until the last time it happened to me. I was removed from the situation and placed in a series of foster homes to deal with the after affects a lone, but I was willing to let it all go and try again after 16 years, just to get it tossed at me that the whole thing was my fault. I just sat there crying listening to this, I started having a panic attack remembering exactly what happened and thinking ... why can't he just stop doing this to me. I know I let him call me, so that is my fault, but for him to call me to do this is mean.

The last time he was drunk he fell and busted his head open on his motorcycle ... My brother and I went to the hospital he was taken to and spent over 14 hours trying to convince these people to release him to us and I almost went to jail for defending him. I think I need to stop this from happening, but this person was once very important to me. I don't know what to do, I just know I feel hurt all over again.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009


I have never really went as far as trying a reflective shot before. I was sitting at a local park waiting for a friend one day this past week and decided to give it a try from the mirror on my driver side door. Here is what I got. I decided to shoot it in Black and White because that is my favorite form. I used a photoshop Elements 6 Enhancement on the image called Poster Edges for additional effects. I kind of like it. I might have to try some other types of subjects in this reflective style.

Bright Colors & Flowers

I have loved lillies since I can remember. I have been playing around with different editing techniques for some time now, and I decided to try some enhancement techniques. I wish flowers really looked this bright sometimes. I have always loved the way a flower looked after a fresh rain and decided to see if I could get a decent shot to use on my computer.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Old Time & Tractors

Man ... I really need to get some posting done. I have some things ready to post, but I just have not had the time to do it. I messed up my back trying to put the groceries in the truck of the car a little over a week ago ... The drive home sucked!!! I went alone.

On a brighter note ... before that happened I got out to visit my father. It is always a very hard thing for me to do because of things that have happened between us, but I decided it was a growing experience I needed to do. It makes me stronger in the long run, so it's worth it. He has this really old tractor out at his place, and I took an interesting shot of it.

I am not sure what it was about this tractor that got my attention, but it seemed like something unusual to photograph, and I decided to give it a try. More to come within a few days. I have a few from the past few weeks I really want to get posted and share. I have been out doing some experimenting since I can move around better now.